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I know how people hate it when I make anything that's non-sexual, but I promise you DeviantArt, this is the last upload I share in a journal. Not just of 2016, but period. My use of DA shall be no more after today.


About two years ago I had the idea to repaint screenshots from my favorite Balloon Toons moments. When I think Christmas, I think NiGHTS, so I went with this (plus I really wanted to share the glory of my favorite cover of Dreams, Dreams).

So what do ya say, one more of my career destroying "DA journal rants"? :-P This ends it then. Unlike previous projects that saw me surprised at their reception, I actually approached this one knowing full well people wouldn't watch it. Where as I started with ideas that were sure to grab numbers like "Deville Trolls Elsa" or a variation of the Thanskgiving painting with snow in Kay's panties instead - I decided to go with what scared me the most, which is also what made me happiest.  Alas happiness=/=audience satisfaction. 

But what's done is done. From now on all my journal like entries will be taken to a new platform (TBD, but you'll know it from my channel links). Also I was gladly able to  FINALLY claim the URL I've wanted since 2010 - youtube.com/c/Cromartie - which has me absolutely ecstatic. 

I take my leave. When you see me next, things will be new. New avatar, new channel art, new name, new direction. Thanks for making 2016 a great year. I celebrate my 27th birthday in peace. Play this song, for some reason I was listening to it while typing.


Farewell.
90s disney bye goodbye pocahontas

~TBWPlum 2010-2016
Everything that happened was a result of my anxiety spiking scarily high and the interactions with the medication I'm on. Thanks for sticking through it. The latest journal I posted goes into a ton more detail.

Taking a break until January although I want to get one more speed paint uploaded before I do.
Speaking to you one thousand percent calm again, no kappa. Put yourself in my shoes for a moment: You're at poverty level and you've turned in plenty of job applications over the course of two months to nothing but rejection. You keep not having enough to eat or entertain yourself, yet you see that your dream creative careers actually pay fairly well and have the skillset in your portfolio to match. However, you're doubly frustrated by the fact that these jobs still reject you while others of equal or lesser skillset succeed and you feel like you've made a terrible mistake by not finishing your Bachelor's degree as so many companies are asking for it. You feel completely trapped and you certainly aren't getting any younger.

On top of this add the fact that you've been taking feminizing hormones to feel more like the gender you identify with. However, given how rampant transphobia and violence is against trans* people of color, you're still in the closet and forced to live as a male despite how badly you just want to be yourself. On top of that, New York is the most expensive, dangerous, coldest place you've ever lived and not a soul wants to help you through it. What happens?

You hit the fan and your clinically diagnosed anxiety goes absolutely off the charts resulting in..well you saw it.  All in all it was a combination of extreme rage and hyperactivity. I was shaking like crazy all the time I spammed stuff, and kept texting friends and changing subjects on a dime. I.e.: I'd go "So I thought about Dan Rather this morning" one sentence and, "If I liked cars red would be my choice" the next. It's really hard to describe in words how being in this mental state felt from my perspective, but it actually brought me great peace of mind and comfort to keep doing everything I did. I was so completely very broken that that was all that grounded me. 

So now you know. I actually won't delete any of it yet, I kind of want to have what I did stay up as a reminder to myself, although I have revised my channel back to normalcy. I think it's no secret how much my mental health interferes with the creation of my art, but I appreciate that all of you stick through it.

However, it all comes with a silver lining. It did make me face my fears, put myself out there at my absolute worst, and showed me the world isn't over after it. I'm phasing out updates to DeviantArt in the grand scheme of things for my plans so I soon won't be posting anything here anymore anyways. I've also decided I'm going to close my Patreon and switch gears to a new one if/when I need it. I've also happily claimed "Cromartie" as my new channel URL and with that officially begins the work in broadening to the wider niche I've dreamed of. I've cleaned up my links and overall am getting a ton more serious about YouTube in 2017 in anticipation of being ready for production access at the YouTube Space. All this will be a gradual process (ayy like my HRT changes) so we'll all see how it goes.

Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, Hanukkah, Kwanzaa, Life Day, Festivus and/or whatever you celebrate. My birthday's Monday and I'm going to take a long break from YouTube again and see you guys in January (although it would make me very happy to get one more speedpaint out right before I do). 
































I know how people hate it when I make anything that's non-sexual, but I promise you DeviantArt, this is the last upload I share in a journal. Not just of 2016, but period. My use of DA shall be no more after today.


About two years ago I had the idea to repaint screenshots from my favorite Balloon Toons moments. When I think Christmas, I think NiGHTS, so I went with this (plus I really wanted to share the glory of my favorite cover of Dreams, Dreams).

So what do ya say, one more of my career destroying "DA journal rants"? :-P This ends it then. Unlike previous projects that saw me surprised at their reception, I actually approached this one knowing full well people wouldn't watch it. Where as I started with ideas that were sure to grab numbers like "Deville Trolls Elsa" or a variation of the Thanskgiving painting with snow in Kay's panties instead - I decided to go with what scared me the most, which is also what made me happiest.  Alas happiness=/=audience satisfaction. 

But what's done is done. From now on all my journal like entries will be taken to a new platform (TBD, but you'll know it from my channel links). Also I was gladly able to  FINALLY claim the URL I've wanted since 2010 - youtube.com/c/Cromartie - which has me absolutely ecstatic. 

I take my leave. When you see me next, things will be new. New avatar, new channel art, new name, new direction. Thanks for making 2016 a great year. I celebrate my 27th birthday in peace. Play this song, for some reason I was listening to it while typing.


Farewell.
90s disney bye goodbye pocahontas

~TBWPlum 2010-2016

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TBWPlum
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Animator, musical theater enthusiast/performer-aspirations of achieving both professionally. If I'm not singing, I'm working like crazy on cartoons that pique my desire for leveling the gender playing field when it comes to slapstick animation.
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